A New Path

Oh how I’ve missed blog land. Hee hee. Its been so long since I’ve blogged I almost forgot how to do it. But I know how much you’ve guys have missed me, hee so I figured I would explain the new path God has lead me to take.

In my previous post’s you know I started nursing school. As I said before when I went to college there was a 2year waiting list so I entered surg. tech. and graduated from that. I loved it and enjoyed every minute of it. I absolutely love being up close and all into different types of surgeries and considering you’re the surgeons assistant you can’t get no more close and personal than you already are. Anyways, when I graduated I was excited to start a career as a surg. tech and really didn’t care or have the desire to become a nurse anymore. I got offered a job of a lifetime, at least I thought so but instead I got talked into furthering my education as a nurse. So I continued to pursue it. As I started this past Aug. I knew it was going to be tough but with God by my side I knew I could do it. The second week of class I was passed stressed out. I have physical/health problems that were starting to decline and get worse. I just continued to pray and ask God for guidance and help through this. I believe I cried myself to sleep every night of nursing school except the first few days of classes. The next couple of days just got worse and worse. I became very sick but I wasn’t going to let that stop me from studying. Well, I failed my first exam. After I had studied my lil’ heart out and actually felt pretty good about it just to find out I failed. Talk about the worst day of my life. I’m always looking for the Lord’s return but that day I was crying for His return. When I found out over half the class failed the first exam I didn’t feel half as dumb. After crying my eyes out that weekend, with the support of my family, fiancé, and friends I realized it wasn’t the end of the world and that I did my best but next time I was going to have to do better. So I did but my health wasn’t getting any better and it was starting to interfere with my school work. To make a long story short, one morning as I woke up God had layed on my heart to withdraw. But I thought are you kidding me? I can’t do that. What would people think of me? They’re going to think I’m a failure. I fought and fought God because I was afraid what people were going to say or think of me and I knew that was the devil telling me all this. After long hours and sleepless nights I finally pleaded with God and let Him handle the situation. I went to the school and talked to the director and told her my situation and that I wanted to withdraw. She helped me feel more at ease but nothing can compare to the peace that God had given me as I left. It was as if a burden had been lifted off my shoulders. It’s hard to describe the peace God gives you but I can tell you it’s an amazing feeling. And if you’re stubborn like me, it takes us that much longer to receive His peace, haha. I’ve given my resume to several places as a surg. tech and two of them have called showing interest. I’m very excited but I’m continuing to pray for God’s guidance and I know if it’s His will it will all work out. I’m anxious to catch up on my Bible reading and Bible studies in the meantime. I know God has wonderful plans for His children as long as we stay in His word and seek Him in everything we do.